blogombal Chapter 31 Let go
Chapter 31 Let go
"Brother Mu Song, what are you thinking about?"
Facing Mu Song's frequent distractions, and the gloomy expression after each distraction, Bai Xu had mixed feelings.
But he knew Mu Song's temper, so he didn't dare to press too hard, so he could only interrupt at the right time.
"Oh, I was thinking, did that couple break up later?"
"Haha, I'm dying of laughter, Brother Mu Song is really warm-hearted..."
"Hey, where is it? I just feel that the boy is very attentive to his girlfriend. It would be a bit of a loss if he gets dumped because he doesn't know how to take pictures."
"Hey, don't think about it. Didn't you always teach me that every encounter in the world has its own fate? I don't need to worry about their young couple!"
As Bai Xu said, he raised his hand and looked at the time.
"Brother Mu Song, go shopping by yourself first. I'm going to see the stage construction, and I'll call you when the concert starts."
After explaining to Mu Song, Bai Xu raised his hands, turned around, and ran towards the ancient stage with long legs.
Looking at Bai Xu's lively back, thinking about the whole day's activities, Mu Song is not without envy.
18 years old, the best age, the first admission ticket to the adult world, full of the courage of a newborn calf not afraid of tigers——
I thought that as long as I worked hard enough, there was nothing I couldn't do in the world.
If this courage is used well, it can tear a hole in this increasingly solidified society.
A young hero, born out of nowhere.
Let the vast majority of ordinary people who keep to the stereotypes be inspired to see another possibility in life.
But if it is not used well, it is possible to be blind and blind, and embark on a road of no return.
It wasn't until the blood was broken that I realized that courage is not enough for many things.
Obviously, the 18-year-old Mu Song belongs to the latter.
So, when he saw Bai Xu doing what he likes to his heart's content in this great age, Mu Song was both envious and happy for Bai Xu.
He thought, if he could do it all over again, he would also find his love.
Instead of wasting precious time in so many meaningless disputes, in the end, nothing but scars are left...
Watching Bai Xu's figure disappear into the crowd, Mu Song came back to his senses.
Following another wave of people, along the classic tour route, we came to the last stop of the tour, the rippling inner lake of Qiaogong Garden.
For this lake, Mu Song was very impressed, but it was not because of the lake itself, but because of the buildings surrounding the lake.
The so-called pavilions, platforms, buildings, and pavilions, the four most typical types of ancient Chinese architecture, were built along the small lake according to the situation.
A series of hugs, one shoulder to shoulder, one foil the other, integrated and complement each other.
Therefore, the reputation of the world's No. [-] garden can be counted, and it is well deserved.
Sitting in the pavilion by the lake, looking at the scenery that overlaps with his memory, Mu Song once again isolated himself from the noise, just like six years ago, quietly staring at the lake in a daze.
It was an amazing experience.
Mu Song thought.
If one day, this experience can be carried forward to form a unique set of methods, Mu Song wants to name it: Bundi Meditation Method.
And the essence of this method is just like the literal meaning - to meditate in the dance.
It sounds like nonsense, but Mu Song deeply believes that the more noisy the place is, the more suitable it is for people to walk into their hearts.
Just like noise, what really affects people is the sharp noise that suddenly appears in silence.
On the contrary, the continuous and stable low-frequency white noise can play a calming and calming effect.
This principle is similar to conversion in meditation.
The more noisy the outside world is, the more complicated the environment is, the less people can focus on a specific external stimulus.
Instead, the more you can see your own heart.
If you can take the opportunity to practice introspection, it will be easier to achieve the effect of meditation.
Speaking of which, the first time Mu Song discovered this method was six years ago, in the gazebo where he was sitting in Qiaogong Garden.
At that time, he was alone and depressed.
Looking at the tourists around, weaving in groups like a shuttle, it is inevitable that it will become more serious, the so-called loneliness among the crowd.
It was raining again.
The sound of people, rain, and noise turned this 600-year-old classical garden into a chaotic vegetable market.
Mu Song was really tired, too lazy to squeeze around with people, so he simply stopped in the pavilion by the lake.
It was very cold and the railings of the pavilion were very wet. Therefore, no tourists stopped here, and they all hurried through the pavilion and rushed to the next scenic spot.
But Mu Song didn't mind, took out his raincoat, spread it on the rail, and sat on it.
Facing the rippling lake in the rain, let the tourists behind you shuttle.
As Mu Song sat, he gradually felt that the voices of people, rain, and noise were getting smaller, and the inner voice was getting louder.
For the first time, he experienced the joy of achieving inner peace in the hustle and bustle.
So, since then, Mu Song began to pay attention to the knowledge of meditation.
Over the past few years, I have also gained some understanding, and it has greatly helped his writing career.
Every time Calvin would go out, he would find the most lively street corner in the city and sit in the corner.
Let all sounds flow into his ears, and all people and things project into his eyes.
If yes, accept.
There are all kinds of voices and appearances in the world, no distinction, no judgment, enter his body, and flow away without hindrance, without causing any ripples.
Going back and forth like this, the knotted points in my heart can often be untied suddenly, and my writings will flow like a spring.
Over the years, Mu Song has relied heavily on this method.
Whether it is decompression or digesting emotions, in short, it is an extremely applicable self-healing method for him.
Therefore, when he came to the birthplace of this method again, Mu Song's mood was very different, even a little faintly throbbing.
Just like six years ago, Mu Song found the railing and sat down quietly facing the lake again.
Close your eyes and feel the wind blowing across your face, with the fishy sweetness of the lake and the fragrance of vegetation.
I was immersed in it for a while, and I don't know what night it is.
However, Mu Song is experiencing the harmony of heaven, earth and man, and the tranquility of the years, but in the eyes of others, it is a different feeling.
Fifty meters away, Lu Yuan was enduring back pain, standing behind the rockery piled with stones in Taihu Lake, staring at Mu Song's lonely back with distressed eyes.
Mu Song, who is 178, is actually considered to be medium to high among ordinary men.
But because of his thin body, long legs, and small upper body, he looked a little petite when he sat down.
At the moment, he is alone, sitting facing the lake, looking very lonely among the tourists passing by.
And six years ago, he must have been like this now...
Lu Yuan has a lot of demons in his heart now, and often because of one thing or one thing, it brings back memories of the past, and then he feels continuous guilt.
On the one hand, she feels sorry for Mu Song, but on the other hand, she always thinks that she must chase him back quickly.
Hide it in your heart, love well, and make up for it well.
So, Mr. Lu, who felt sorry for his "daughter-in-law", walked over slowly while supporting his waist, and sat down beside Mu Song.
Mu Song closed his eyes, but he was more sensitive to other feelings. He felt that there were more people around him.
But he thought it was another tourist, so he didn't care, until he put his hands on his shoulders...
Opening his eyes suddenly, he turned his head to meet the faces of the people around him, almost causing him to fall into the lake in shock.
"careful!"
Lu Yuan pulled Mu Song back.
The sudden force of the arm severely pulled the injury on the back, adding a little more pain to Lu Yuan's already pale face.
"You, you, why... why are you here?"
Mu Song opened his eyes wide and stared at Lu Yuan.
He actually wanted to ask, "How did you become like this?" Afraid that Lu Yuan might misunderstand, he still held back.
"I... pass by."
Mu Song: ...
The ghost is too careless.
Tickets are required to enter the park, you have to queue up to buy tickets, and you have to queue up to enter the park.
passing by?
This "passing by" is also quite strenuous.
But looking at Lu Yuan's "sick face", the soft-hearted Mu Song felt compassion for a moment.
He didn't care too much about him, but broke away from Lu Yuan's embrace without any trace.
"Ahem, you don't feel well, so don't run around."
As Mu Song said, he was about to stand up.
Guada Lixia, it's really inappropriate to be so close to his ex-lover.
But as soon as he lifted his butt, he was grabbed by Lu Yuan.
"Song..."
Lu Yuan called Mu Song, using the nickname he only called every time he sued for peace, his voice was a little trembling.
Although I find it really baffling, Lu Yuan's current state looks like a paper doll.
Mu Song didn't dare to argue with him, nor could he get angry with him, so he turned his head and looked at Lu Yuan helplessly.
When I met his gaze, I saw clearly that his eyes were full of pain, and I couldn't tell whether it came from the back or the heart.
Mu Song: ...
Sighing, Mu Song thought: That's fine, just take this opportunity to explain clearly to him what I wanted to say at the thank-you banquet.
So, without Lu Yuan pulling, he quietly sat back on the railing, looking back at Lu Yuan from a safe distance.
"What the hell do you want?"
"I……"
Putting it aside, Lu Yuan, who has a bad temper, will definitely say, I have done so much, what do I want to do, don't you know?
But at the moment, the person in front of him is a treasure that he can't hold in his hands, how can he say a serious word?
So, he was at a loss for words for a while, and didn't know how to express what he wanted to say euphemistically.
After holding back for a long time, watching Mu Song gradually showing impatience, afraid that he would leave again, Lu Yuan was anxious, smashed the jar, and blurted out.
"I...I want to take you home."
"Family?"
Mu Song, who had just gone through the "baptism" of album memories, felt ironic when he heard Lu Yuan's words.
"What home? My home is right here, Lakeside Garden in S City."
"I mean, our home..."
"Have you and I ever had a home? Isn't that, has it always been your home? I'm just a sojourner..."
"No! No..."
"Okay, I don't want to talk to you about this, now that I've talked about it, let me explain it clearly.
In the past, who is right and who is wrong, I really don't understand, since let go, let's all look forward.
Lu Yuan, go back and live a good life. "
Mu Song felt that the meaning that should be expressed was well expressed, so there was no need to sit down anymore, and he had to stand up as a gesture.
Realizing that Mu Song was about to leave again, Lu Yuan, regardless of his back injury, used all his strength to grab him.
"I never let go! Never, never..."
As Lu Yuan spoke, his voice was choked up.
His pale face, and the sparkling water in his eyes, the pain is too obvious, more like a broken doll.
……
Mu Song was completely speechless.
He was speechless to Lu Yuan who sold him miserably, and also speechless to himself who would buy him miserably.
"Ahem, don't be like this. How inappropriate are people coming and going?"
Inappropriate.
Consciously or unintentionally, Mu Song used the words that Lu Yuan often accused him of.
It's not for revenge on Lu Yuan, it's just that I suddenly discovered that this word is quite easy to use.
However, the speaker has no intention, but the listener has intention.
Lu Yuan's body froze suddenly, and he slowly let go of his hand.
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The author has something to say:
Lu Yuan: My wife, I have never let go, never let go!
Mu Song: Okay, okay, you haven't let go, but you haven't held it either!
Lu Yuan: ...
Mu Song: Between the two of us, I have always held you desperately, so if you want to let go, you only need me to let go.Mr. Lu, understand? /sneer
Lu Yuan: ... I don't know what to say but I absolutely disagree.jpg
Mu Song: Do as you please... I just don't want to play with you.jpg
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Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: Are you full? 5 bottles;
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