blogombal Chapter 36 Goal 9
Chapter 36 Goal 9
Upon hearing Elder Yi's question, the young man pondered for a moment before replying, "I am not averse to this power, and I am willing to accept this help."
Upon hearing Huo Yuhao's answer, Elder Yi wanted to say something more to test the young man's character.
Although he had just heard what the boy said and realized that he was not blinded by revenge and had seen things that he had not understood before, Old Master Yi still wanted to verify it. After all, he was always worried that someone might repeat what he had done with this power.
However, before Elder Yi could say anything, Huo Yuhao continued, "Back in the wasteland, I saw many people do even crazier things."
"Burning, killing, looting, enslaving, and forcing people into prostitution—these are all commonplace and need no further explanation. I've even witnessed cannibalism firsthand in the wasteland. There are also those crazy and terrifying experiments that are carried out in secret under the guise of building shelters for people, and the forced evolution virus that turns people into super mutants."
"There are countless examples of these things; it would take a long time to recount them all."
"And more importantly, when they do these things, they don't feel much guilt. In their eyes, it's a sacrifice they have to make for the ultimate goal, or something they have to do for some kind of ritual."
"That's the scariest thing. When doing something or achieving a certain goal, sacrifice is usually inevitable and necessary, but you must never think that it's something you should take for granted."
"Once sacrifice is taken for granted, then the things done for that goal, no matter how good the original idea was, will eventually deviate from the original direction, and sacrifice will become someone's killing to achieve their desires, and the sacrifice of others will lose its meaning."
"As for the life experiences you recounted, Mr. Yi, I don't know how to criticize that betrayal in the relationship. I haven't experienced that situation, but I can understand the feeling of witnessing the death of a family member. I also watched my mother pass away in front of me."
"I understand that feeling; it's a completely different feeling from a family member passing away peacefully in their sleep."
"At that moment, emotions will descend into madness beneath the surface of calm. Even if nothing seems to change on the surface, the cries and tears have already spread through the heart. The sadness is only temporary, and then all that comes to mind is revenge, for which no price matters."
"Old Yi, you didn't linger on the thrill of your successful revenge, nor did you treat the deaths and injuries of ordinary people as mere background or statistics."
"You have always felt guilty, not because you killed your enemy, but because you haven't truly accepted the consequences of your revenge. You resist those outcomes."
"After the war, the continent was burned and left in ruins. You have never been truly proud of it or regretted the innocent casualties caused in the whole process."
"Even if you pretend to be indifferent to all of this, and keep talking about your successful revenge, recounting over and over how you killed those enemies, as if you are reliving the pleasure of revenge."
"But you haven't truly moved on from revenge, otherwise you wouldn't be asking others if they're willing to accept this power."
"This power is indeed terrifying, and indeed dangerous, but the questions you're asking are, more often than not, questions you're asking yourself."
"No matter whether the other person's answer is acceptance or rejection, you can convince yourself, but deep down you still hope to go back to the person you were at the very beginning of the story."
"I feel that the title of 'Child of Light' is what you truly want, because it represents the happiest time of your life with your family."
"In the wasteland, I have seen many people in similar situations. They all fall into madness and obsession during this process, burning their lives away for it."
"The moment the revenge is completed, it also means that the obsession has disappeared. They are still standing there, still alive in the real world, but in a sense, their lives are coming to an end."
"They don't know what to do next. The pleasure of watching their enemies being killed by their own hands can't last long. It might be a few days, a month or two, or even a few years. After that, their emotions will return to normal, but what they've lost can never come back."
"And I was once one of them, heading in the direction of destroying myself and those around me, but then I stopped and chose another path..."
"I can't really say anything about these things. No matter how comforting the words are, they are empty, because what is lost can never be regained, and the trajectory of life has already changed. Those thoughts that are clear after revenge can only be used to find other things to fill the void of what has been lost."
"I've witnessed countless deaths and retributions in the wasteland, and I'm sure you've seen even more than I have. But the plans I want to make and the revenge I want to take won't change."
"I will continue to move in this direction until there comes a moment when no one else in this world will experience what my mother went through, and people will no longer have to live like this."
"However, I often think back to the last words my mother said to me before she passed away, telling me to live on, and how her eyes have been staring straight at me ever since she died."
"There's nothing to say, nothing to interpret. Just surviving is all my mother ever told me."
"I have no reason to offer you any words of comfort on their behalf to those innocent victims who died or were injured in the process of revenge."
"But in Old Yi's story, your parents didn't say anything before they were executed, nor did they discover you hiding in the crowd."
"But I think they might also want to say this to you: even if you become like this, I don't think they will change."
"There's no need to dwell on how powerful this power is. It's just a power, and whether it's good or bad, right or wrong, is determined by the person who uses it."
"Live on, live well, that's what they want. As far as they're concerned, you don't need to torment yourself like this anymore. They probably don't want to see you like this, even now, they probably don't want you to torture yourself like this..."
After the boy finished speaking, Tianmeng looked at Elder Yi and fell silent. Then, the black sphere formed from the remnant soul trembled.
After that, Old Yi slowly spoke, "Thank you. Many people have sympathized with my experience, that betrayed love, which made me no longer believe in such things. Later, I also witnessed the steadfast love between two people."
"However, it seems that no one is willing to talk to me about my parents, and I seem to have gradually forgotten them. I only remember my childhood experiences and the scene of me hiding in the crowd and watching them being executed."
"It's true what you said. After that, I feel like I've never really moved on. I keep thinking about what happened back then, because what I've lost will never come back to me."
"I told that story over and over again in my mind or in front of others, emphasizing that the power of this necromancy is not evil, but lies in the person who uses it."
"But even as I say this, I still hate myself for becoming like this. As a child of light, I never truly accepted this depravity."
"Of course, necromancy itself is not a form of corruption, it's just that I've never truly come to terms with it in my heart. I'm still thinking about when my family was still alive, when I was still a child of light."
"I didn't realize I was only thinking of these things now. Thank you for telling me..."