blogombal 127. The reasons for this
127. The reasons for this
"So that's how it is?" Xiao Yan's voice also became wistful. Memories of the past kept surging in his mind. He felt that those memories were clear as if they were yesterday, but at the same time, he felt that those memories were thousands of miles away.
Seeing Xiao Yan's expression, Di Nian continued, "The reason you can't remember your past life at all is because you are constrained by this world, which forcibly suppresses your memories of your past life."
"This place is the very center of the Beast Realm, created entirely by my original self, which is why it allows you to recall your past life's memories."
Hearing Di Nian's explanation, the doubts that had lingered in Xiao Yan's heart were completely dispelled; he truly was from another world. He suddenly wondered if his former family and friends were saddened by his death.
He suddenly felt that he had become all alone, that the world no longer belonged to him, and that he stood alone in this world.
Even ordinary people feel an overwhelming longing for their hometown after leaving it behind, and this was especially true for Xiao Yan. However, unlike others, he didn't even know where his hometown was now, what his true identity was, or if he would still be the same person even if he returned to Earth.
Even though Xiao Yan was a Dou Huang powerhouse, the impact of living two lives was too great, leaving him unable to adapt for a while, and his mind began to waver.
Even someone as powerful as Xiao Yan's soul began to become unstable.
Suddenly, Xiao Yan felt a strange fragrance at the tip of his nose. He twitched his nose slightly, and the fragrance seemed to have a mind of its own as it entered his body.
The loneliness in his mind suddenly vanished, and Xiao Yan felt his memories begin to clear.
As a newborn, he lay in his mother's arms; as a child, he played with Xun'er; as a teenager, he was protected by Xiao Zhan when his fighting spirit was repelled; and after meeting Yao Lao, he underwent arduous yet worthwhile cultivation. Scenes from this world appeared before Xiao Yan's eyes, and the omnipresent loneliness in his heart was instantly dispelled.
"I am Xiao Yan!" Xiao Yan suddenly shouted!
He rediscovered his sense of self; he had parents, teachers, and a lover on this Dou Qi Continent, and he was never alone or lonely.
Although he had regrets about his past life, he knew that was just the past, and the current Xiao Yan had reasons not to disappoint anyone.
Xiao Yan slowly exhaled a breath of turbid air. After figuring out how to deal with his two lifetimes, he immediately felt a sense of relief.
Seeing Xiao Yan at this moment, Di Nian's eyes showed a hint of admiration: "Not bad. Even when faced with the test of overlapping memories from two lifetimes, he was able to break free from his obsession so quickly. The little guy is quite impressive!"
Xiao Yan cupped his hands in thanks to Di Nian and said, "I must thank you for bestowing this treasure upon me, Senior!"
Xiao Yan knew he had just fallen into an obsession, and without external help, escaping would be no easy task. The strange fragrance he had just encountered had been of great help, and since he had never heard of it before, it was probably something extraordinary. Di Nian had generously shared it with him, so it was only natural that he was grateful.
Di Nian waved his hand and said, "I've been bored in this space for so many years. The incense for awakening the mind just now was something I made in my spare time using ninety-nine kinds of herbs from the Myriad Beasts Space."
Upon hearing Di Nian's words, Xiao Yan was astonished for the umpteenth time. The power of a Dou Di expert was beyond the comprehension of ordinary people.
"The memories of being two people will cause you a lot of trouble, so the memories of your previous life have been suppressed by the plane. Although you will be somewhat aware of them on a daily basis, you are no different from an ordinary person most of the time. You can rest assured that you are Xiao Yan."
Upon hearing this, Xiao Yan nodded, his obsession completely vanishing.
"Then why did Lu Huangtian and the others behave so differently from me?" Xiao Yan knew very well that Lu Huangtian hadn't forgotten his identity at all.
Di Nian continued to explain, "The plane you lived in in your previous life was an uncivilized land. You did not undergo any cultivation before coming to the Dou Qi Continent, so you could be easily assimilated by the continent."
"However, the Lu clan originated from a higher plane, and their assimilation by the mainland failed, so they have survived to this day."
Upon hearing this, Xiao Yan frowned and asked, "Then why didn't you stop them, senior?"
Xiao Yan had witnessed Di Nian's strength just now. With a wave of his hand, he could control Zi Yan and Yao Lao, and keep them alone in a space. This strength was no less than that of Gu Yuan, who appeared earlier.
Di Nian sighed and said, "Even the strongest Dou Di has his limits. When I first created this space, it was only to stabilize it. Bringing you here is fine, but if I were to make a move, it could very likely destabilize the Myriad Beasts Space, which would then become a scourge to the entire continent. That's why I didn't stop that bright little girl from entering the space back then."
Xiao Yan nodded in agreement. No matter how crazy Lu Huangtian's actions were, they were still limited. However, if something went wrong with the Myriad Beasts Space, it could become a catastrophe for the entire continent. Although it was extremely cruel, Xiao Yan knew that Di Nian's choice was not wrong.
"Lu Huangtian's actions are merely an attempt to break open this world and transmit information to the outside world, but as the guardian of the Myriad Beasts Space, I will not allow him to succeed."
"It is my fault that millions of innocent people in the Northwest lost their lives because of my stubbornness back then."
Upon hearing Di Nian's self-reflection, Xiao Yan remained silent. Regardless of his reverence for Dou Di powerhouses, the Void Emperor was ultimately the biggest reason why outsiders had the opportunity to exploit him. Xiao Yan was not one to fawn over others, and he couldn't force himself to tell the Void Emperor that it wasn't his fault.
"Back then, on this Dou Qi Continent, there appeared a Devouring Spirit Clan, whose power was extremely terrifying. They almost swept across the continent, and it took the combined efforts of all the other forces on the continent to wipe them out. The bloodshed back then was many times greater than today, and the appearance of the Devouring Spirit Clan was merely the result of the Lu Huangtian Clan's secret manipulation."
Xiao Yan was also surprised and asked, "How could they be so powerful?"
Di Nian sighed softly, "They came from a more powerful plane and had power far exceeding ours. Fortunately, eight or nine out of ten members of Lu Huangtian's clan died in the chaos of that year, and some of those who escaped developed into the Xuanwen Sect of today."
"And the reason I called you here is that I hope you can make up for my regrets!" Di Nianzhuo said, looking at Xiao Yan.