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"Tell me, from which direction did you hang yourself? To your left front? Or to your right rear?"
"..."
"Seriously, I know you're fake. Go back to where you want to go. I'm going to class after resting for a bit."
Toyokawa Ningko swung her legs nonchalantly, focusing intently on the tree.
“I sensed your complex inner thoughts; I felt the same way before I hanged myself here.”
"Wow, you're actually a veteran. So your real purpose is to share your death experience with me? Hurry up and tell me where it's easier and quicker to hang yourself."
"..."
The barefoot ghost was speechless for a moment, seemingly startled by the enthusiastic and proactive Toyokawa Ningko.
After struggling for a while, she finally managed to utter a few dry, broken words, just like a machine:
"Don't die."
"Hey, so you're still a bot? Never mind, I'm leaving now, see you later."
"Have you recently had an emotional breakdown, but tried to patch things up and eventually made do?"
"Yes."
Ningzi's answer was calmer than she had imagined, and she continued to look at her feet as she walked on the mud.
"Are you still feeling a little frustrated, trying to convince yourself otherwise but then feeling guilty afterwards?"
"How boring. You come to me with the answers already in hand. Is all you want just the process of asking questions?"
"Don't get excited."
No, I'm very calm.
Ningzi never once looked at the woman who claimed to be a hanged ghost.
What she feared most was seeing a female ghost whose face was exactly the same as her own.
I'm afraid that the pupils on that face aren't blue or red; I'm afraid they might be some other color.
"I'm taking my medicine, that's it. Goodbye for now."
I told myself I was going to take the medicine, but I realized I had no intention of taking it at all, thinking that the two-day weekend would make me happy.
But when she saw Aine and Akari again, she still felt a mix of indescribable emotions.
Isn't that a bit too dramatic? When you see other people, all you think about is how to make them love you more.
"I hanged myself from the lowest branch of the tree. The branch there was thick enough to support me."
"Thank you... So, why did you say that?"
“I wanted to die because I didn’t know how to open up properly back then, and I didn’t have a clear goal. Did you never talk about your greed with anyone other than a few victims?”
"Of course... no! After all, I'm a lunatic, not mentally ill. If I told anyone, who would still want to play with me?"
"But isn't Takamatsu still playing with you?"
“That’s because,” Ningzi looked down at the other person’s feet to avoid seeing the rest of their body, “Takamatsu Akari! She’s a lunatic too!”
"Isn't that because of your influence?"
"..."
The habit of only saying two words at the beginning of a sentence... go away.
"I have nothing to say."
"I just want to tell you that you need to do what a high school girl should do now, and enjoy your youth."
"You should continue to pursue what you like. Stop comforting yourself by saying you'll be content. You can't be content, I know you."
How do you know me?
"Because I hanged myself because I felt satisfied with myself."
"..."
"I have nothing to say."
“Child, you’ve come this far, so don’t be indifferent. I know you don’t want to make everyone sad, which is good. I just hope that you can make everyone feel less upset.”
"You won't feel uncomfortable? What do you mean?"
"What I mean is, if you don't like something, please don't impose that on other people, okay?"
"..."
"For example, if you don't like perfunctory answers, then don't give perfunctory answers to others. I've told you so much so that you and everyone else can have a good ending. As for how you achieve a good ending, to be honest, I don't care. That's something that Ningzi should worry about."
"As expected... thank goodness I didn't look up at you."
"Green, my eyes are green, I'm actually..."
Toyokawa Ningko gave up, blankly raising her head, only to meet a pair of deep blue eyes.
"I was actually lying to you, you little punk. Now you know who the real little punk is! How was that punch you threw at me? Did you enjoy it?"
"Little Ning! You little rascal..."
You think you can just stick close to me after I punched you?! Idiot... Stupid... coward!
"What's wrong? I noticed you weren't listening to anything I said last time, so I thought I'd wait a couple of days until you calmed down before trying again. But I didn't expect you to have already made up your mind this morning."
Ningzi smiled with satisfaction, a genuine smile that no one else could fake.
"I think you should be prepared before you start using meal replacements, and be prepared not to waste them."
"Language has long been inflated. 'I love you' is now just a way of saying thank you, but I think you should still tell everyone you love them more often."
"Really?... Ugh, that's disgusting, Little Lemon."
"Where can I find it?"
"Then, I love you?"
"I love you too, Xiao Ning, be happy."
"By the way, Ningzi... wait, where is she?"
When Ningzi wanted to say a few more words to the girl in white, the girl had already disappeared from her sight.
In the empty outdoor space, only Ningzi, carrying her shoes, was wandering around. Occasionally, a few naughty cats would pass by and roll their eyes at Ningzi.
"The show is over. What I mean is thank you for appearing, Xiao Ning."
Although you are very impolite and left without saying goodbye.
But I still like you. This statement doesn't diminish the value of my feelings at all.
Ningzi is going to enjoy her youth! Ningzi is going to let everyone feel her love more directly!
Toyokawa Ningko licked her lips and swallowed two pills in one gulp.
Although mental illness is cool, mental illness is not good at all; mental illness is bad.
if you can!
I hope you recover soon... Hmm, I'll have Mu take me back for a check-up another day.
This decision will definitely startle Wakaba Mutsu, as she's always been bad at processing new information.
I'm starting to want to be human.
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